“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Some people asked me a year ago what am I planning to do after graduation. I think that is a common thing to ask given that we are expected to land on high-paying jobs in the corporate world because of our Atenean education (well, most of us, especially people in SOM). And I remember answering it nonchalantly with “rest/work/travel for a year then go to law school”. I was always so sure of my answer — particularly about the “one-year break” period.
But now that most of my batchmates who got admitted to UP Law School and Ateneo Law School are starting their first semester in a few days, I feel a pang of regret for postponing my dream for a year. Job hunting is fun and I enjoy going to interviews. Truth be told, I was even thrilled after receiving my first ever job offer. But after the adrenaline rush subsides, I am back to the realization that I still want to go to law school.
Boy I wake up everyday wishing that I could go to law school this year instead of getting lost in a sea of job openings and interview offers.
This is the first time in my life that I seriously do not know what am I gonna do. No plans, no directions, no whatsoever. For a year. Who would have thought taking a break could be this stressful?
But as the verse goes, even if I do not know where I’m heading, I will have faith that He is the wind that directs my ship towards where He wants me to go.